3 years ago today, my life radically changed . Its confusing to look at the “horizon” now. 3 years of letting anger get me through stuff, does things. Now I see how destructive it is. Numbs feeling, but actually it does more damage. Never realized it, but It can be a drug for the person that doesn’t do drugs when taken to this extent.
tack that on to my brain surgery of a cerebelum that had an anuerism and the side effects i already had - cant walk, barley speak, little cognitive response, no control of eyes, little coordination (so re-learn everything even swallowing- sucks when you have insatiable thirst), very sensitive to light, noise, stimulus, tunnel vision, no perception of periphreal vision, easily distracted, insatiable thirst, very impulsive, alot of disability all around, dont know what happened or why im there because i remember a different life, was out for a month when all the bad stuff happened/impaired cognition. anger was such a good friend but God is much gr8er. Prayer does miracles.
tack that on to my brain surgery of a cerebelum that had an anuerism and the side effects i already had - cant walk, barley speak, little cognitive response, no control of eyes, little coordination (so re-learn everything even swallowing- sucks when you have insatiable thirst), very sensitive to light, noise, stimulus, tunnel vision, no perception of periphreal vision, easily distracted, insatiable thirst, very impulsive, alot of disability all around, dont know what happened or why im there because i remember a different life, was out for a month when all the bad stuff happened/impaired cognition. anger was such a good friend but God is much gr8er. Prayer does miracles.
So after 3years, I’m deciding to make this a real effort:
-not “ride” anger into or out of a situation. Or put it under the surface.
-see blessing in all this
-not “ride” anger into or out of a situation. Or put it under the surface.
-see blessing in all this
-not hold onto stuff. Get it out before it turns into a big monster that eats everything. Being dependant on God is a gr8 thing. People are gr8 and are worth putting “chips” in. God gives more “chips” so its all good. Trust is probably the most intense game there is.
-let Gods peace guard my heart and mind (Philippians 4:7) and not bitterness.
- not wait until tomorrow, or be impulsive.
-no stinking thinking
-trust
-it could be worse, it could have stayed that way. there could be no hope or no joy.
-build something on the lot i've been given.
-down more slupeez
-let Gods peace guard my heart and mind (Philippians 4:7) and not bitterness.
- not wait until tomorrow, or be impulsive.
-no stinking thinking
-trust
-it could be worse, it could have stayed that way. there could be no hope or no joy.
-build something on the lot i've been given.
-down more slupeez
P.S. define person? not a fan of the dictionary definition. It's too general. - a human being 09or the personality of a human being
or...Person is an individual substance of rational nature.- Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia. 10 Apr. 2008. http://www.reference.com/browse/wiki/Person
I like how the Bible defines people. made in Gods image (Genesis 1:26). Crave life (Ecclesiastes 3:11 ), full of sin (Romans 3:23) but so loved! (Romans 8:39)
April 10th is a weird day for me.
